Sick!

I am sick today.. fragile and easily broken. something of a sharp instrument which started from the brain I think and it drifted down towards my chest and is standing there right in the mid-way blocking my olfactory nerves! Now this is not a new experience for me. I am undergoing an emotional trauma! - which in effect makes the half of me feel that 'I am good for nothing' - and that's why the other half feel like killing it! I sit all day alone - all I can hear is my own breathing, my own insecurities reverberating against the walls echoing inside my skull, my own thoughts of freeing myself, freeing the 'world'! Trust me these thoughts... they add oil to the fire.

Ok... accepting that I am as such fallen behind in a land of dead war.. invaded by evil spirits. A severe back pain. Eyes are finding it very difficult to look into this white screen in this dark room. I am hooked up here. I am my own prisoner.. prisoner of my own mind, scratching at the walls, screaming at someone to let me out of this. Asking myself again 'am I totally insane'?

I am sick... sick of what? Sick of everything.. not the one to be born ever! .. Get me out of this hell...